forget the risk, take the fall :D

Sunday, October 26, 2008

went to my school's prom last friday. was damn fuckin bored. seriously damn damn bored!! but lucky i got calls and msg'es. hahaa. this yr is the 2nd year being with my classmates. and and for me their attitude kinda SUCKS! "ikut emotional kinda person" i HATE people like that. no offence.. wanna hate me i dont care. as long as i dint do anything wrong its fine. oh yes im fat and ugly so what ?! deal with it la!
being FAT got wrong iszit?! if yes then fuck off la. i know im fat. and i dint say im pretty or i have a hot body!! so why wanna say that i say so? i DONT even THINK that way! and u freaks wanna say i do!! i DONT FUCKIN THINK that way. so wanna hate me. go ahead. no one's stopping YOU!
the prom started at 7pm and ends at 11 pm.. went there nearly 7.30 and i was sort of the person who's late. LOL. and i got so bored i called up my bf to pick me up early and went to asia around 10 something. cant stand the peep's in ther.
and some certain friend of mine told me > high school prom not really that nice. college ones are better. its kinda tru also :D after my bf pick me up. went asia wearin my prom dress O_o everyone was like looking at me. haha. but lucky his friends all ther. can cover me. xD sat ther ,yam cha and talk alot of stuff. went back around 2 something.
then the nex day my bf brought me to barcelona [again] lol. wasnt really that fun but i enjoyed. i took care of my bf's hing dai's gf. she was drunk. this is my 2nd time takin care of ppl again. wooo carry her until leg pain. not really carry la . just "fu" her only. on that day got so many fights happened. 3 groups. the manager also got so fed up. bouncers , police and everyone all downstairs. lucky my groups were upstairs. later we went down cos' goin back home d. then saw micheal ther. ask me again. waaa another one. lol. he was like tellin me. go out with him must b steady and so on.. i dint really wanna layan him. been listenin to him crappin for like alot of times. and its like OMG! help. hahha no la no la. jokin jokin. he just cared to much for his friends. hmm after went downstairs that girl wanted to puke. so i carried her to the other side near the longkang. then saw inspektor came and nearly bang micheal wtf! then everyone was like going back home. cars all drivin awayyy. after that went asia yam cha again.
hmm then today my bf called me wake up at 1.19pm just to ask me whether i wan join him and his friends go pyramid anot. i was like damn za dao lo. fine la. since i miss him so much! lol dunno why. so told him yea then sleep back again cos i was like damn sleepy , yesterday slept at 8am befor that set alarm to wake me up at 1.30 so that i will b able to get ready. after fetching me went kota kemuning to fetch his hing dai. then plan plan, suddenly see see we went for a triple date. hahaa. 3 pairs of couple's and got 2 guys also joined us for awhile then 3 pairs of us went and watch movie, bangkok dangerous,the movie erm erm its ok la. movie started around 7.40 i think. then end around 9 something. after that went asia [again] ate dinner then came back around 12 something. cos' my bf hav to fetch his hing dai home. while on the way to asia in the car was like so funny. but i kept quite cos' got nothing to say. let my bf's hing dai 'teng' me until ' mo sen chut' so got nth to say. when send him back that time i dint even say a thing then he was like askin my bf : "weih ur gf angry d ar?" then my bf say no la. she like that wan la . tired d kua. lol today had so much fun~ :D happyyy.. can say its like my 1st time triple dating together. being with them is damn fun and they make me quite happy :D :D their quite funny also. what also take and talk wan. hahaaa. erm tired. thats all for now. hmm SPM comin soon.
will update!

*cheeeerrriiiooooo~

11:12 AM should she give up? ♥

Saturday, October 18, 2008

fiBee :D

finally, gOt her to go with me for my last day in bAr CeLoNa for now. xD

hmm actually thurs was suppose to b my last day.

but went again yesterday. oh well..

after SPM will b gOin ther agaiN :D

iVaN and his PALL MALL . hahaa.

he said: cheap cigg fOr poor ppl yet he still smoke it . LOL

but whatever it is.

its still affordable :D

fIbee , me and yii yii.

made new friends agaiN :)

yay! nex time go iN dont hv to wait already :D

yoey , me and ivaN

lookkiieee... my cheecks damn pink.

drank loads.

hmm yest was the worst!

fell of the stairs , phone fell off from my hand and its dented

and and my heels BROKE!! OMG!

all because i took care of this girl right ere, yoey.

she drank until she was damn drunk. and i had to bring her out.

haih! dislike ppl who doesnt know how to drink keep drinkin.

sad also don la drink until like this! trouble me sahaja! LOL

nah la . just joking. i just don like see'ing my friends like this.

no point drinkin when ur sad.

hmm, ran here and there from republic to bar celona

when i reach in front of barcelona

i started vommittin! wadda- farrrrkkkk .

yii yii told everyone i was too tired.

my head was damn f'ing pain. and and i scream and yell and cried. LOL

yest was the worst clubbing day ever !!!

FiBee and me

in the car on the way to bAr celoNa..

yay yay !

was so happy that she can go. LOL

all this while try calling her out to clubs but she say kenot.

but yest she can :D

hmm but but dont wan spoil her la.

she's a great kid :)

8:05 AM should she give up? ♥

Thursday, October 16, 2008

this is why im moody! *sigh*

and all you ever reply to me is " get well soon " O.o??

what you wan me to react? what you wan me to feel? i dont even know whether you say that you still love and miss me is true? i really dont wanna get hurt anymore!!! i dont know whether i should believe it or not.. i wish i could. i want to. but i cant! im sorry.. i really do love you. but i dont hv any confidence towards u anymore. i dont know why. seriously i dont hv any confident anymore. ur so far away from me. i just cant stand the distance.. plus all the stories you told me the girls will come to u not u go to them. whether its them coming towards you or you going towards them still doesnt make me feel good. why , when im sick you wanna do this to me? im coughing real bad right now. voice change damn deep. i feel like your just playin me. i really don't know. i wish my guessing is wrong. but i think it'll never be ! =/

2:57 PM should she give up? ♥

16 okt 'o8

-BaRcElOnA-

made new friends today again!

lol. actually wasnt in the mood. was damn moody today.

so yea. drank loaDs :D

but wasnt drunk! hahaax.

BaRcElOnA BABY!! xD

i was damn high and tipsy today!

wasnt in a mood so hell yea.

drank kinda loads.

but wasnt drunk. xD

lucky ahaax.

( in barceloNA)

daRlInG's fAv pLace :D i dON't know why.

bUt i LoVe thIs pix!

after going euphoria.

i and my friend,

deborah went barcelona.

I LOVE BARCELONA! xD

( in euphoria) 16 okt '08.

todAy went euphOriA .

1st time going ther!

OMG ! its ok .

but i dOnt like it.

im now iN love with baRceLoNa . LOL!

15 okt '08

yest's pix .. went bArcElOnA AGAiN .

always bacK to the same plACe .

oh well :D iM iN LOVE with thAt pLacE :D

2:14 PM should she give up? ♥

hmm. went barceloNa again yest~ made some new friends. now got more clubbing kaki d. LOL. summor i nex time go in no need to wait liao. wooohoooo :D can just go in like that. wahhahah. damn fun la yest. but too bad im sick . cant drink sooo much. but still high. all the guys keep askin me to drink 1 shot 1 shot. told them i cant cos' im sick. nex time only drink with them. after saying for quite a few times only they let me go. drank until quite tipsy. hahaa. took a few pictures. but lazy to upload it now. so will upload soon :D i guess will b goin tonight again! xD either to euphoria or barcelona. not sure yet. this week will b my last for now. SPM comin d :( hv to study ... *study study & study* but oh well after SPM will go more i think. hahahha. go until sieN d then find other things to do. ahaax. thats all for now! :D

6:02 AM should she give up? ♥

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

forget bout the feeling much better part! LOL. im gettin even worst.. woke up today my throat damn painful. voice change real bad!now raining summor later sure damn cold. my darliNg msg me today around 1pm after his coll break i think. to see whether im awake d anot. cos' usually i always wakes up around 4/5pm hahaa. bad habit of mine. he ask me to change it so .. yea. tryin to change :D hmm told him im gettin worst and he say he wanted to come and take care of me .. hahaa then then i tot he wasnt at college so i ask him whether he got go anot. then he say "got , now at college la. my bebe sick adi i what also dont care la.. u more important" [ awww! how sweet! ] then he came by my hse to see me :D he bought food and soyabean just for me .. i damn happy la today. LOL. but really cant stand the cough. it's really killing me. dammit can't stand it already. i guess i'll stop right here..

*cheeeeerrrriiiioooo~

9:29 AM should she give up? ♥

Monday, October 13, 2008

here it is! got the pix!

deb's fav lol.

the purpleeee dresss..

from eclipse.

and this is how long it is!

i don really like long dresssessss ..

hmm. got a msg from dear :D

told me he'll pick me up to go play snooker.

went to summit to see him play! lol.

and i wore this ther.

and and its freakkkiiinng cold in ther.

i was freezing LOL. diNt know it'll b damn damn cold .

summor i was sick! ILL!

around 5 like that he sent me home cos he hv to go visit his brother in the hospital. how sad :( deborah called me cos i msg her this afternoon. forgotten she got driving class.. hahah . terdisturb her! anyways we went for dinner around usj 2. she drove her myvi! without license. and and her drivin skillss . 1 word LOL. damn funny... her dad called her a few times cos was worried bout the car and her i guess . hahah scare got accident or something. eat also no peace! xD after eating went back home. while she was drivin me home she saw a black cat! and guess wad . its damn damn damn funny. she hon at the cat 3 times. so i ask her why?

she said black cat = bad luck so must hon 3 times incase. i was like wadda. za dao! so yea laugh until stomach pain. and now still can keep laughing ! ahahahah .. so yea u guys remember nex time when driving see black cat hon 3 times. HAHAH! just incase..

6:12 AM should she give up? ♥

Sunday, October 12, 2008

went clubbing agaiN .

..last wednesday..

i must remember 1 thing.

nex time go clubbing

i aiNt gonna wear this dress thingy anymore.

its so freakinnnn HOT!

damnn caN't stand the hEat!!

summOr so maNy ppL..

gOt fight's also!

and and that dress thingy so damn short.

deborah and me!

been going clubs with her lately.

sometimes 1 week twice!

found new clubbing kaki d~ xD

more to come i guess LOL

hmm.. yest went clubbing again. so crowded inside. damn allot of people. so damn freakkinnn HOT also. regretteddd wearin that blue dress ther. oh yea met a korean dude. his studyin in suNway colleGe if im not mistakeN. can't really listen clearly and i forgotten his name hahaa . music too loud enjoying dancin that time LOL. hmm. yest was quite weird. 3 guys wanted to dance with me at the same time. so san fu! but i was enjoying myself with deborah :D kinda ingnoring them.. hahax. saw my dear ther. dance wid him for awhile. then went and dance wid deborah cos he wanted to go drink. so yea. dance till 2 something almost 3am my friends all wanted to go back. around 5 am my dear called me and told me his friend punched him. OMG! *heartache* in barcelona when i saw him, i knew something happened cos his face like "mm song" like that. dint know he got punched by his friend when he wanted to stop the fight between his friend and other friend. wadda-heck right! hmm i did tel him if my friends fight like that 1st thing i would do is stop them and slap both of them then make them talk it out. its just a simple thing why wanna fight about it ? hmm . been thinkin alot after we finish talkin on the phone.. actually i was sick yest but still wanted to go clubbin. hahaa. this is how stubborn i am! xD today afternoon woke up cough until voice changed badly. now feeling much much better..

9:01 AM should she give up? ♥

Friday, October 10, 2008

went skating today with my frieNd.. had fun. but bored of skating d =/ after that meet up with my other friend, Deborah then we went window SHOPPING! :D had so much fun.. but too bad. we cant afford to buy. LOL.

hmm tried allot of clothes in Forever21 , eclipse , MNG and sooo on.. let the picture do the talking alright .. kekee =)

MNG!

if im not mistaken it cost rm 69.90

love this one :D

Forever 21

this also cost rm 69.90

i love this one as well.

but too bad.. no $$ to buy. xD

..eclipse.. i LOVE this dress!

i seriously do LOVE it!

its really really PRETTIEE .

but ...

it cost RM 300 ++

O_o eyes big d when saw the price tag! LOL

DEBORAH!

she like this.. its from Forever21

hmm but she loved the purple dress from eclipse, expensive place.. :D

the pix not wid me.. so ill upload it later..

hmm .

she look a lil bit mat saleh'ish with that hat on her..

hahahaa its from Forever 21 ..

FOREVER 21

thats all for now.. hmm i wish im really really RICH! hahaha. then i can buy whatever i want whenever i want it.. lmao. if i gOt credit card sure shop till i drop! *dreaming* LOL..

9:47 AM should she give up? ♥

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

i cant believe myself. its been soooooooooo long. why am i still crying for him? am i not happy now? do i miss him that much? do i miss him at all? why do i still have to keep viewing his msn and his blog? hmm since he already deleted me in facebook and friendster i think. can't we be friends? why?! i tought i've moved on. ever since he gave up, we broke up i never drop a tear. why now? can someone tell me why? i really can't believe myself. why am i crying for him now but not then? i admit its my wrong for lie'ing to him.

but its too damn complicated for others to understand my situation. no matter what i said, what i've told. the same thing will come bac to me "its not complicated, its very easy only. ur stories always change" bla bla bla... its not my stories that always changed. its always been that way. like i'd said "COMPLICATED" if all of u can b in my position like what i am in right now. u would hv understand. but no one does. everything i said and done. everything changes. especially on her. i treated her like my best friend i don even know whether she does anot. all she does is say whatever i say sometimes doesnt make sense.

my other friends who knew me. knew my problems told me mayb she did it on purpose. yea mayb. i guess i hv to agree with that. when i was with him she loved to tag along with us. i duno what's her plan. before we broke up. we often have arguement's. and that time on i've been cryin alot. i called mae to talk bout it. everything she says its tru. he fell for her!

but after all this while. now i think back. everything my closes friend told me is all tru. she said to me

"mayb that ***** is just jealous of you. she has a plan. u better be real careful"

why dint i listen to mae in the 1st place? am i that stupid?

i dont even know why did i trust that ***** in the 1st place. i just wanna be a better person.

learn how to love someone and be loved. is that so hard? why whenever i put my whole heart towards that someone, i'll get something like this. when will it end?!

i guess they still got contact each other. i dint plan to see him again. until that day ***** called me out for lunch. i ask her who's goin. she just laugh! wadda-heck. by then i knew oh its him. i told her i not enuff cash. she say nvm la. just come. then i knew something. so i ask her. you wan me teman you iszit. then she say yes.

i was like O_o totally nothing to say. i was so bored ther. dint eat. just drank only. after that he paid for her lunch. i knew that he would. so i dint wanna say anything. din wanna talk. dunno what to say. i guess ther's nothing else ther is for me to say. since i think he still like's her. idk! sigh~ ther's nothing much i can do that time. all i can do is just keep quite, listen and do nothing. oh well.

*cheeeeriio~

12:22 PM should she give up? ♥

Sunday, October 5, 2008

went poppy yesterday, celebrate kay ee and erik's birthday! its my 1st time goin in to poppy. its fun but alot of people. so damn hot inside. :D hmm both the birthday boys called around 20 + people i think. so many friends came and enjoy. half way dancing got fight. dunno what happened. everyone ther was high, they dance and kiss also got ahaax. in the end, some of them were wet especially the birthday boys. their friends took them to the pool and push them in. they came to me wanted to carry me in the pool. i ran and scream LOL. then my bf helped me. he sacrifice to go into the pool if not they sure carry me and throw me in. hahah. thanks to him :D knew some new friends ther. but only got 1 pix with 1 of them. cos all drunk d and some went back home.

birthday boy

* kay ee *

thanks to him for bringing me into poppy :D

kiwi jie aNd me

knew her yesterday

she got thrown into the pool

how sad. LOL but fun :D

this few people were thrown into the pool.

they're all wet :)

except for d bouncers.

lucky im not wet! hahahaha.

after that we all went back home. plan to go yam cha but too tired so dint. hmm dint get to take the other b'day boy's pix. how sad. LOL. thats it for now..

9:05 AM should she give up? ♥

Friday, October 3, 2008

hmm.. been quite long dint really blog. so here it is.. went clubbing again on thurs -ladies night- with a bunch of guys friends but seperated .. all go different places.

i went barcelona with one of my boy friend. intro'ed me to his leng chai friends. OMG! lolx. other friends all in euphoria. sad sad. i dint go! oh well ther's always nex time :D dint take pix in barcelona. kinda lazy hahah. so all i can do is write things bout it :)

i really enjoyed allot ther danced and drank. but not high xD. today fought with my boyfriend! its been 1 week i didnt want to contact him. cos no mood mmm guess no feelings d kua. he called me today after his trip. we talked half way then argued again.

then in the end he ask for break up so yea. im free! LOL plus i don like argue'ing all the time. his been a control freak last last week. cant stand people controlling me. not even my parents. oh well. but we're still friends i think.. (: hmm i got a pix from my friend just now. its so .... erm hahah duno what to say about it!

credits to jowen.. behind the girls is bryan

and guess what?

LOL i guess you guys already saw that

.its kinda dark tho.

the girls is kissing

oh well its normal for me hehehe^ thats all for today. end of story. gonna have more fun before the holiday ends :D must really enjoy before SPM! *screams* ahaax oh yaa.

during clubbing on thursday my friend vomitted on my leg 4/5 times forgotten dint really counted it and i hv to go toilet and back a few times to wash my leg xD lucky he dint vomit on my dress if not i sure knock his head LOL. hmm i took care of him from 3 i guess till the end of everything.

its my 1st time taking care of a person. erm a friend. a very very close boy friend. the feeling is quite nice. lucky his friends were ther. if not im dead 'cos i dont know how to drive manual cars plus i dont have license so yea. lucky his friends were ther. his friend drove his car fetch him home. put him on the massage chair then he slept ther. i was worried sick 'cos his stomach pain. didnt know why he drank so much. so i gave him a kiss on his forehead before i got out of his hse. ahaax.

after that went yam cha with his friends. they're so friendly and cutee! hahah. hmm sit for an hour , chat , laugh and enjoyed. then they send me home. when i reach home it was around 5. lucky dad woke up at 6. if not he sure scold. hate when he does that.

hmm today went out with that friend of mine he brought me to eat bah kut teh. delicious hahah. i teman him from 5 something till 7 something. everytime i see him he seemed sad i guess. i hope i can help him =/ but i cant do anything more. all i can do is just teman him go out play and enjoy. he really can make me happy whenever im angry or sad and whenever im with him i don have any worries at all. all i ever had was just fun :D but i dont know what i can do to make him happy. oh well ill think it later on. off to bed now :D

12:57 PM should she give up? ♥