forget the risk, take the fall :D

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

three simple words..
expressed in so many ways..

using your eyes to see myself
the happiest reflection
the connection that we hold in our hands
is our guidance for tomorrow
it doesnt matter near or far
what century
i love you
i am willing to go
to whatever life i do not know
i love you
i am willing and allowing you to step forward and decide
the edge of the world
occasionally i really dont understand you
but who really understands themselves?
sometimes the closer two people get
is through hurt to prove it
like worried and uncertain
i am stubborn and demanding
i love you
let me listen to when you are tired and scared
i love you
i want to kiss your heart that is strained to the limit
the faith that was cut
needs time to heal
dreams are tangled with suspicion
can deliver enough strength and courage
i love you so i want to go to the unknown, any sort of life
wherever we go, we go together
to look at the stars together
walk out a forest together
share memories together
to misunderstand jealousy together
to wait for the sun after the rain together
to understand ourselves better together
to find meaning together
i love you i dont want to lose you

but i already had

truly yours :
LyN

4:17 PM should she give up? ♥

Sunday, June 21, 2009

woke up at 5 pm ytd and had to rush to pyramid to buy him presents for his bday.. actually i decided to buy him a wallet.. but after walkin for 2 hrs went and bought a shoe for him instead and it cost me rm80.. friends kept sayin his not even my boyf anymore why are u buyin something that cost that much.. i told them nvm lar.. its ok.. due to my financial prob they know.. so yea.. anyways went back home at 8pm and his party starts at 9.30 so rushed to get ready and wrapped his present together with kumar, tee sinn and ah ying's present in 1 box.. we reached at the party around 10.20 something.. so go in wished him and then came out.. ahha.. alot of ppl we dint know ther so decide to come out and smoke.. so we walk to some place far cos we don wan actually tee sinn said i dont wan the parents to know.. yea i don and his church members was ther too.. so pai seh la let them see, right? so after that he saw us at the corner so he asked why are we here.. tee sinn answered and he said something that really really made me sad that day.. after eatin and we sat for awhile we told him we gtg d cos all of our friends waitin for us at barcelona.. so we rushed to pyramid.. and we kinda enjoyed.. but later on something happened.. and a friend of mine had to b in the hospital.. damn sad weih. haih anyways thats all for now..

.xoxo.

2:48 PM should she give up? ♥

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

u posted this buletin on friendster..

i very sad cant sleep, but i very very sleepy adi is jus when i close my eye i will think about her i very very love her but y she like that to me, we very good this days very happy but she don like always b with bf, she like be together with her friends more then bf. if bf and friend she chose (friend) haizzz i very sad and angry but i din do it cos i love her very much i really love her,. i cant sleep hope,.,. 1 day ppl will understand..

like all my friends around said
"what goes around comes around"
perhaps mayb this is what u deserve.. but i feel for u.. wanna know why? cos u've done it to me befor.. i told myself that time i wrote about u was my very last but i cant.. i don know why.. you said u love her very much? but what about me? u told it to me befor. said u love me forever.. wont leave me and so on.. what are u? a fuckin playboy?! come on la.. i suffered so much cos of YOU! why? i myself don even know why.. mayb its because i love you with all my heart.. but in the end u hurt me damn fucking deep.. i don even know why i cant let go of you.. i should but i just cant. treat people nice and people will treat u nice too.. try thinkin la! its not that i wanna talk bad about you but just think la what hav u done to me.. i know its already past.. u also know how to say to me what's past is past.. why befor what happen to us, u never think about it? u wan people to understand you? i understand u very well.. and u said i don.. u can ask ur heng dai's who understands u well enough.. me and all of them..

i tried forgettin everything you've done to me. but i just cant. i tried being strong yet im still the same. i never felt this way befor. but u made me this way.. i will NEVER forget what u did!! btw thanks for everything!

11:11 AM should she give up? ♥

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

hmm a friend of mine.. smart enough to call me to go out with him for a movie last mon night.. konon to teman him.. so i said ok la since i got nth to do at home.. so told him to pick me up.. he came after 30 minutes.. cos' i need to get ready.. so yep after pickin me up he had to meet up with his cousin and to pick up another friend.. went all the way to old klang road.. after that it was like around 11 something already.. and the movie starts at 11.40pm.. and then they start speeding la.. racing and all.. you know la.. "guys" haha.. especially when they're with their cars.. so called "toys" xD i love those type of guys with their interest. car modification and all.. bla bla bla.. haha.. so anyways back to the topic.. reach at 1u tepat tepat at 11.40pm went ther and buy tickets then into the cinema.. tru out the whole movie i laughed.. and my friend was like u too scared until u use laughin to cover iszit? then i was like NO! wher got. seriously funny ma.. that show damn funny laa.. after that they said wanna go yam cha. i was like ok la. but in the end we turn up in bar celona.. -.- wth.. and it was on monday night!! i was like, wth im wearin like that larr.. ish! so went in ther sat ther and drink.. bla bla bla the end.. haha..

hmm.. im startin to miss my friend.. O_o mayb i got feelings towards him.. haha wtf!

i miss junior!! (: LOL

3:52 PM should she give up? ♥

Saturday, June 13, 2009

went to the loft, kl..
anand farewell.. and he got drunk.. mission acomplished ahhaha.. had loads of fun there.. met so many leng chai's *smiles* but too bad din get to take pictures with 'em.. 'cos most of them too busy makin anand drunk.. haha... after that went yam cha at puchong near doris's hse.. after yam cha went to her hse 'cos pauline wanted to play her snake, her rot viler, her other mix puppy(dunno mix what), her porcupine,her chipmunks and her scorpion.. her hse full with these pets.. damn cool weih :D after visiting and playin is around 6 already.. so i told pauline let's go my mom would kill me if im not home.. so reach back home around 6.30 more or less la.. lucky mommy wasnt awake.. anyways kinda tired now..

anand and his two friends
before his drunk.

erm
i forgot what its called.. LOL

i like the smokey effect

all of them forcing him to drink.
haha.
after drinkin that graveyard he got drunk.

me and doris (:

me and jane
just met her that day.

sherry :D , her boy and me.

doris and anger
.her baby snake.

pauline and anger.
they love snakes and i dont. LOL

two of her cute and super active chipmunks

the camwhore wan xD

the father porcupine

the baby porcupine is so damn cute (:

oh yaa..
and not forgettin..
my brother invited me and owen to go for his car show/road show
(what-so-ever it is)
infront of MOS
but i wasnt there... sorry kor!

cheerrriiiiooo~

4:52 PM should she give up? ♥

Thursday, June 11, 2009

i thought i would be happy with you.
but it turns out the other way..
my friends make me more happier than you do..
we kept argue'ing lately. and u know i dislike that..
u know i damn effin hate people hangin up on my call just like that..
i don give a shyt of any excuses except for no cred.. and i meant really no cred!
its like almost everyday we've been argue'ing
for? alot of lil shytty things!
and u're reminding me of him and missing him alot..
u're really makin it hard for me.
all the memories just came back after being with you.. just like that!
and i just can say 1 thing..
i used to love him with all my heart..
no one I MEANT NO ONE!
can replace him from my heart.
until i found you. but u're makin me think twice..
and it proves no one can replace it... it really does.
i really don like being like this..
i've mention im not those good girls...
my friends know me more than you.
why cant you just listen to them.. what they say is DAMN TRUE!
their tellin you all my attitude but u just wont listen.
i know you care alot..
its just when im pissed leave me to cool off..
my friends told u this befor.. you just dont listen.. and look wad happen?
u make me more pissed off and you make urself pissed off..
this is really not my fault.. they already warned you..
but u still wanna blame me for it. fine i'll let it be...

4:17 PM should she give up? ♥

Sunday, June 7, 2009

this is gonna be my very last post about you..
i saw u in the club with your girl yesterday..
i really was very dissapointed.. i dont know why..
but yea i am.. im just gonna say it right here for the very last time..
no matter what i hide my tears when i say your name
but the pain in my heart is still the same..
u may meet people..
better than me,
beautiful than me..
but one thing i can say to you..
i will always be ther for you when they all leave you..

this few days i met alot of new and very good friends..
their always there for me, caring and so much more (:
i really was happy to have them in my life..
they really brighten up my life..
ther's so many things that had happen to me for this couple of days.
i really cant take it anymore and i just burst out cryin..
i apologize here for just cryin like that infront of you people..
especially to jennifer, ray and owen..
i really love hangin out with you guys alot :D
makes me forget every sadness that i have..

jen, thanks for today babe..
nex time my treat kay? (:

currently addicted to : hatin' on the club- rihanna

12:48 PM should she give up? ♥